We all have times when there just are no answers to the questions we want answered. Nor can everything that you have a question about be found on Google either. You will have to just accept that it is what it is and no matter how hard we try things just happen, that's just Life and Life isn't always fair. Winning in life means you found a way to enjoy Life despite all that you had to live through. You simply managed to live Life to it's fullest while you were living not spend it searching for answers that can never be found.